I'm not the only one who has had a crappy, dare I say, shitty year. I don't know what weird astrological alignment or wrinkle in the force has caused so many people I know to have the worst of years this year, but bottom line is 2013 can suck it. Good riddance, 2013. Hey, hey, hey, goodbye.
For me, it has been a year of mostly downs and worst case scenarios. It has been anxiety-ridden and sad, and while I have done my very best not to air my dirty laundry or bellyache (too much) on Facebook or any other social media, that's not to say that I haven't done my fair share of complaining to those I hold closest to me. Even though I have no intention of going into the minutiae of my problems, I am compelled to say thank you, here, publicly to a few incredible people in my life - people who have propped me up this year, propelled me along, and encouraged me to keep my chin up. They have been my unsung heroes.
Angel was with me for the whole ride. She whisked the kids away to St. Louis when I needed a weekend to sort things out. She funded the kids' fun more than once, filled my car with gas, and ignored her own problems to help me deal with mine. My mom and Bill helped me to talk things through and figure things out when I didn't see much hope. Stephanie knew to call at the exact moment I needed someone most - when I thought I couldn't sink any further and desperately needed a friend. She cried with me and told me it was going to be okay on more than one occasion.
Holly talked me down off the ledge more times than I can count. She always made me laugh with her Holly-isms and never failed to make me feel like I could manage things. Cindy, despite her own horrible year, checked in on me regularly and told me inappropriate jokes to take my mind off things. I don't think I'll ever look at Abraham Lincoln quite the same thanks to Cindy. Teresa was my voice of reason and helped me to maintain my focus. She gave me innumerable, potential solutions when I couldn't seem to find one. Carrissa and Tasha gave me a sense of relief by keeping an eye on things.
Lori gave me invaluable insight and showed me that though we might not see each other every day anymore, we can still pick up exactly where we left off. Gabby gave me a solution at a crucial time. Tony and Jackie gave me a shoulder to cry on and were there for me to talk to whenever I needed someone. (They are, however, never allowed to leave town again because things seemed to fall apart for me when they did.) Miriam and Ann treated my problems like they were their own, fully analyzed the situation, and gave me suggestions on what to do. I am so lucky to work for such caring, beautiful women.
All of these people have shown me love and understanding. They have held me when I cried, called when I was close to despair, and helped me to brainstorm and problem solve. They have reminded me to take a deep breath and focus on getting through the next 5 minutes when getting through the next 24 hours seemed like an insurmountable task. They gave me hope and continue to do so on a daily basis.
There were countless others on Facebook and in my day-to-day life that sent good thoughts, prayers, and positive vibes. It meant so much to me to open up Facebook and see 50+ comments of encouragement and love from friends far and near. There were others who were never more than a phone call away - people like Jeffe, Kim, Kimberlyn, and J.J. - who called and sent me messages and told me that if I needed someone, they were there. Just knowing I had their support was part of what made this year bearable.
Of one thing there is no doubt, this year has made me stronger. I can't say I was always happy about that fact. Being strong means you can handle whatever is thrown at you. There were days when I didn't think I could handle getting out of bed, let alone face my problems.
About halfway through the year, someone I didn't know well told me that the most important thing I could do was to have hope. I would have liked to throat-punch her, and had we been speaking face-to-face and not on the phone, I just might have. It was absolutely not what I needed to hear at that moment. Now, four months later, I have hope. I think I always did have it. It was there hiding, along with my strength, just under the surface. I can be sarcastic and pessimistic, but I'm generally a silver linings kind of girl. My friends helped me, not by telling me to have hope, but by showing me how.
One of the biggest compliments I received recently was from someone who had been right in the trenches with me and whose opinion I value most highly. She told me I was the strongest of all her girlfriends. What I hope she, and all of the people I've mentioned, know is that without all of them I wouldn't be where I am. Without their encouragement and support, I couldn't have had hope. I am better, stronger, braver, and wiser because they have made me so.
So, as 2014 is knocking on the door and we slam and lock the door on 2013, I leave all of you with this thought.
"This is my wish for you. Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth.
Love to complete your life."
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To my friends - my best friends - thank you. Things are finally looking up. I'm cautiously optimistic. I have hope and strength, and I made it through because of each of you. I love you all, and I'm hoping for a better 2014 for all of us.
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